I am quite tired...
I had 6 hours of Church meetings yesterday. Being in leadership, and still recovering from this is absolutely exhausting. I will be released within 6 months from one of my 2 Stake -(mid level administrative) callings, but Church runs 3 hours, and my evening meeting is 90 minutes. So the time commitment is about the same on Sunday. My 'day of rest' is hardly that.
It actually felt as if my eyelids were fighting gravity this morning. I am back on a timed, medicinal amount of caffeine, something controversial in LDS circles. Ironic, huh? The actual church rule is coffee and tea, and I am on a pill, so it is not exactly the same, but any substance that causes addiction is probably not the best thing for me to be doing...
And then there is the feeling. The creeping feeling of irrelevance every time I am in Church. I wondered if this would happen with the hysterectomy- a Church that not only values family and children, but has it as part of it's core belief is bound to stir some feelings.
I had 6 hours of Church meetings yesterday. Being in leadership, and still recovering from this is absolutely exhausting. I will be released within 6 months from one of my 2 Stake -(mid level administrative) callings, but Church runs 3 hours, and my evening meeting is 90 minutes. So the time commitment is about the same on Sunday. My 'day of rest' is hardly that.
It actually felt as if my eyelids were fighting gravity this morning. I am back on a timed, medicinal amount of caffeine, something controversial in LDS circles. Ironic, huh? The actual church rule is coffee and tea, and I am on a pill, so it is not exactly the same, but any substance that causes addiction is probably not the best thing for me to be doing...
And then there is the feeling. The creeping feeling of irrelevance every time I am in Church. I wondered if this would happen with the hysterectomy- a Church that not only values family and children, but has it as part of it's core belief is bound to stir some feelings.
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