After I came home, I was apartment bound for 4 weeks, and could not come back to work for 6. I read, played online, and did not do stairs. Church and work folk brought in food, and I slept alot.
It amazes me how clear my head is, almost from the moment I woke up on the table. This is clearly what has been wrong with me.
Dr. L said that there was an endometrioma the size of a softball perched on top of my Uterus, (I even saw the Laparascopic photos, amazing!) one of my ovaries was pinned to my pelvic wall with endometriosis, and I was, as the Doctor said, "a real mess." He told my family it was the hardest hysterectomy he had ever done. That is saying something, he began practicing in 1974!
I feel lucky to have come through, what has surprised me is the number of women my age who have this done, and have problems. I have heard from many classmates on facebook, and a former neighbor, who have had terrible experiences, cancer, and a host of things.
The Hysterectomy support group has even more. Ladies who are mourning the end of their fertility, mourning that they can't have more children (though I have noticed that none of the women who have never had a child express this.) The site kept warning me that I would have flashes, depression, and negative feelings.
I have not. If anything, my mood is stabilized, and without emotional detachment, I am feeling good for the first time in a long time. I have no real negative feelings about this, at all.
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