Before moving to the present, I must document the phone call I received from Dr W., my General Practitioner. Being unable to reach her by email, on Tuesday I sent her a fax with my new Diabetes dosing, and the general plan for my gynecological abdication. She called me Thursday morning, and wants to know if I am "sure" about the hysterectomy, and don't I want to have CHILDREN????????
What? Oh good heck. No, my eggs expired when I turned 40. (I am now 43) I explained that I have no one with whom to have a child, and even if we kept one of the ovaries (presumably the left with the smaller, "only" 6 AND 8 cm cysts, as opposed to the 9 and the 11 cm cysts on the right, both of which are uncomfortable), they are taking my UTERUS! How does she expect me to have a CHILD without a UTERUS!
The need to reproduce is primal, I understand. Why has this not been more than a passing thought since I was 25, and even then it was forced, and artificial. Selfishness? The thought that I would mess up and be a bad parent? Matthew 9:25 talks about eunuchs. Am I one of those? I guess I will be, whether I want to be, or not!.......
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