Wacky side-effects

When I was first put on one of my drugs, one of my side effects was very vivid dreams. They went away for a while, now they are back.

Are they psychosomatic? Are they really just acetylcholine neurons firing into the fore brain? Is it my brain working stuff out?

Or, is it what I am thinking....my blood sugars are tanking in my sleep because the meds are too strong, and my brain freaks out?????

Time and Date

October 30th, 9 am. Dr. L is going to try to do this laparascopically. If so, I am off for 2 weeks, and then back to work. I really like the sound of that.

I have picked up my FMLA paperwork from his office. It is interesting that the Doctor's office charges $15 just to fill out the paperwork - the same price it would cost me for some actual face time with a real Doctor!

Everything is sore, ad I just don't feel well at all.

To top it off, I hit a Deer on Sunday. So sad, and it just keeps replaying in my head! Not cool!

You have GOT to be kidding.....

Before moving to the present, I must document the phone call I received from Dr W., my General Practitioner. Being unable to reach her by email, on Tuesday I sent her a fax with my new Diabetes dosing, and the general plan for my gynecological abdication. She called me Thursday morning, and wants to know if I am "sure" about the hysterectomy, and don't I want to have CHILDREN????????

What? Oh good heck. No, my eggs expired when I turned 40. (I am now 43) I explained that I have no one with whom to have a child, and even if we kept one of the ovaries (presumably the left with the smaller, "only" 6 AND 8 cm cysts, as opposed to the 9 and the 11 cm cysts on the right, both of which are uncomfortable), they are taking my UTERUS! How does she expect me to have a CHILD without a UTERUS!

The need to reproduce is primal, I understand. Why has this not been more than a passing thought since I was 25, and even then it was forced, and artificial. Selfishness? The thought that I would mess up and be a bad parent? Matthew 9:25 talks about eunuchs. Am I one of those? I guess I will be, whether I want to be, or not!.......

3 for 3

Well, now....wasn't that fun? LOL Seriously, it was fine. We decided to take the uterus (there are a bunch of fibroids, and it does not look right on the sonogram), and both ovaries. Whether or not we take cervix will depend upon the results of the pap.

Here we go...

Dr. V cut my meds back a little! Yay! I take one less pill per day. I also went, and had my pelvic ultrasound follow-up, and my blood work done.

I got the copies of the films. It is clear that the cysts are larger, not smaller. Somehow, I knew that...maybe it was that they wake me when I roll over at night. Or that I can feel them now.

Dr. L called Monday. He wants to see me right away. I need to bring my latest labs, and the results of my last pap.....I say, "You mean the one I had done in 1998 in Utah?"

...Yeah. I am having a pap tomorrow, as well as talking about surgery. Dr. L. was NOT pleased...

Labor Day irony......

I spent Labor Day weekend mostly asleep. Friday night I was in bed by 10. Sunday afternoon, I lay down at 1:30 to take a short nap, and cyst pain woke me at 8:45 pm! Monday, I also went to bed early, stayed inside, and did not exert myself. I am soooo tired; I have fantasies of falling asleep under my desk at work. Despite timed doses of caffeine, I am constantly sleepy. Thursday is my next Doctor's appointment. I hope my Endocrinologist has some answers for me....